No, seriously, I'm a complete and total Debbie Downer, a Negative Nancy, I feel like this stroke of bad luck won't quit and the hits just keep on coming. The crummy thing is that I don't even like myself right now and wouldn't blame someone for not wanting to be around me, I don't care much for my attitude, but man it's getting harder and harder to fight. I seriously feel like Eeyore, although without my tail nailed to my ass (that would make me pretty grumpy too).
My stress level is beyond high with school starting today, my internship two days a week that started yesterday, this GA Tech competition that is Thursday and Friday, in addition to having to find time to work, cause as you all know, if I don't work, I don't get paid.
To add fuel to the fire we have been sweating our asses off since Thursday when our 18 month old Air Conditioning unit crapped out on us and the latest estimate to get it fixed is over $900. There is a warranty on the unit, but it doesn't cover labor and the labor warranty was only for a year… so we're effed. We've called the manufacturer, LENNOX, and threatened to report them to the better business bureau, but they could care less, so I wrote a strongly worded letter to the CEO, of which I'm sure he'll never see, but I let him know what a piece-of-garbage product LENNOX has, how gawd awful their customer support is, and how I will make it a mission to blast their product on every forum, social network and website I can whenever I have the opportunity, and if an opportunity does not present itself, I will create it. I also thanked him for fucking up our American dream (sorry for the language). I know it's a little dramatic, but I can't imagine that someone who's salary is just shy of a million dollars a year (before any applicable bonuses) could possibly understand where we're coming from. BASTARDS!!! So, if you haven't figured it out yet… DON'T BUY LENNOX!!! Don't even consider it, not for one second, DON'T. Down with LENNOX.
And yet people still don't get that their comments of "you've got to be positive", "things will get better", "keep your head up" are just trite, especially as they are saying them while enjoying life with their perfect little families, in their perfectly air conditioned houses, with their comfortable bank accounts, because they work within their ideal job. Positivity gets harder and harder when you have been for years and years and years in the past and you still keep getting shit on.
Thank god for exercise. Boy, if my serotonin levels weren't low as it is with all the stress and misfortune in life, I would be completely certifiable if I didn't get up every morning and exercise. It has been a great stress release and I can't wait until it's a little cooler and I can burn off more stress in the evening. Shy-town met me this past Sunday to go run at Boling Park. We actually finished 5K! I didn't necessarily run the entire thing (Shy did, she's amazing) but I finished! I was so thankful for her agreeing to meet me because I needed to work out some frustration, yet I was in no mood to go and exercise. So her planning on meeting me meant that I had no option but to go. Everyone at bootcamp was so excited for me and today Michelle said that she was thinking about me all day saying "Liz is an athlete" BAHAHAHAAA… I don't know if I'll ever reach athlete status, I'm such a klutz and incredibly uncoordinated, but it's flattering that she thought it.
So here I am, hoping that things don't get worse (cause I've lost all optimism at this point), but hey, at least I haven't lost a son in Lebanon.
2 comments:
You're totally allowed to be a Debbie Downer once in a while. Sometimes you just can't help it & I'd happily come hang out with you if we lived closer. However, you haven't lost your optimism - you're just too hot & stressed. Just keep going.
Dear Eeyore, @#!$% You're right, there's no way to sugar coat all the poop you guys have had thrown at you lately. And words of encouragement are probably extremely frustrating to hear right now. Every time I hear something negative that you're dealing with, I think gosh darn it, they are both such good people, people that would do anything for anyone, genuine, good hearted people, why in the world are they being challenged...constantly?? Why can't they get a break? All I can say is I'm here for you if you need to yell, vent, throw things (just not at me please!) and I won't utter one positive encouraging word ;) I'm sure I speak for everyone when I say that you don't have to be "fun happy positive Liz" all the time...we love you anyways! There's nothing I can say to change the challenges you're facing (I would if I could!), but just know that you are an inspiration and you make me want to be a better person! Keep using the frustration to kick the arse out of the lbs girl!! HUGS!! Your friend, Tigger (aka Jen H.)
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