Sunday, March 25, 2012

14 more days...


That’s when I hit my one-year boot camp anniversary. I figured in honor of the soon-to-be landmark date, I would break down the top 14 things I’ve learned over the past year…

14. Exercise is like crack. Once you start, and I mean really start to exercise, it’s really hard to stop. My days feel incomplete without exercise.

13. It’s all about the endorphins. I’ve come to learn that if those endorphins don’t kick in after a good workout, I feel like I haven’t exercised at all. Additionally, I’m able to better handle stress, and my mood is way better because of it.

12. God really does have angels on Earth. Stacy and Eric! You have both saved my life. Your encouragement, your dedication to my goals, and your not-so-subtle nudges to push me harder, have truly been life-saving and have given me a life I didn’t know I could have.

11. Sometimes being accountable to yourself is not always enough. Between my close family and friends constantly checking in on me, some of the strangers who read my blog waiting for an update, my husband asking me about boot camp each day, and Stacy sending me texts and emails to check in on me – I have been accountable, not only to myself but to a huge support system. I’ve tried time and again to get my health in line, but for some reason, being accountable only to myself was never enough. I needed the swift kick in the ass from my husband who has been extremely aware of the (necessary) cost of getting my health back and the reality that I don’t want to disappoint him or waste our money. I need people who I run into in town to continue to ask about my blog and inquire as to why I haven’t updated it recently, or the 1,000,000 emails, texts, and instant messages from Mary demanding a blog update – not to mention all the encouragement that goes along with it.

10. I have a love affair with chocolate and it’s way more powerful than I can handle. I’m entirely grateful that my husband is accepting of my extramarital affair with chocolate. I have tried and tried to end this relationship, but I have yet to succeed. Stacy tells me time and again about cutting out the sugar in my diet, but chocolate is the one area that I have not been able to cut ties with. I suppose everyone has his or her vice, and maybe I just need to accept that chocolate will always be mine.

9. The encouragement from others is way more powerful than they know. I am constantly surprised when someone I know, but would never in a million years think they would read my blog, mentions that I haven’t updated it in a while. Prime example was last weekend when I ran into Nate, Melissa and Eli in downtown Woodstock. While I thought that Melissa may read my blog when she has the time amongst being an awesome mom, nurse, and student working on her PhD, I would have never thought that Nate would read it too. Not sure why, I guess I just figured this is a girly thing and dudes wouldn’t be interested. But… this is the stuff that keeps me going. My fellow campers saying that they didn’t even recognize me from behind because my body has transformed that much is a little nudge to make me work harder that day. My co-workers recognizing that my pants are getting a little baggy and are bringing in some clothes that no longer fit them to try and help me out, gives me the support to hit my next weight loss goal.

8. Just because you’re skinny, doesn’t mean you’re healthy. An insanely scary thing happened a couple of weeks ago that rocked my world and my family’s world. Greg’s sister-in-law, who is my age, developed a blood clot in her brain that scared the hell out of us all. Jenny is a cute, tiny, little thing and the last person you would think this could happen to. Greg always jokes that she’s so small she needs ankle weights in the wind so she doesn’t get blown away.  Most people tend to think that smaller/skinny people are healthy people, but the development of a blood clot in the brain at such a young age is a huge wake-up call that health is defined by exercise and diet, not size and weight.

7. I want the whole world to know what I now know. I’m trying not to be obnoxious about it, but I want all my family and friends to eat healthy and exercise as much as I do. I can’t begin to tell you how much richer my life is, and how much better I feel, even not having reach my goal yet. I’m always trying to find the best way to encourage those I love to take better care of themselves, and I usually try to do it by asking them to go exercise with me… even if it is at their own pace. I’m going on a girl’s weekend this coming week and I’m hoping that some of the ladies will go for a run or walk with me at least one of those days. I’m sure some of them are in better shape than I am, but I’m trying to pay it forward when it comes to health.

6. Your weight can affect so many different aspects of your health. This might be TMI, but one of the most significant changes I’ve found when it comes to my bio-physical health is that my cycle has become regular again. I haven’t shared this with many outside of my close circle, but I was diagnosed with PCOS (Poly-Cystic Ovarian Syndrome). This is an imbalance in hormone levels in the body, which causes your ovaries to stop ovulating and in effect develop small (mostly harmless) cysts. This has a huge impact on fertility and while it’s not always found in women who are overweight, that’s one of the main contributing factors. It’s amazing how increased weight affects blood sugar levels (hence why so many overweight people develop Type II Diabetes), which in my case affected my hormone levels, and my cycle. That doesn’t even mention the fact that for all I know… I might have been pre-diabetic 49lbs ago.

5. Feeling good about yourself physically helps you feel better about yourself mentally. Of course there is a correlation between your physical self and your mental self. I have a greater sense of confidence, I stand taller, and I have a greater sense of accomplishment. I recognize the importance of setting goals and I now have the confidence to achieve those goals, be it physical or mental.

4. The skinnier me is way more fun than a fatter me. No need to go into detail here… (wink, wink)

3. Healthy people are happier people. I always had this perception that healthy people had easier lives, made more money, and didn’t have to work as hard to be happy. Come to find out, that healthy people work even harder at being happy because it’s not easy to make the time to exercise, work hard at being healthy, and eat well. Do I still believe that healthier people are happier people – Yes! But that’s because of the aforementioned endorphins, the increase in serotonin levels, and the positive difference in disposition that being healthy can achieve.

2. Clothes shopping is not longer a chore. Don’t get me wrong, I still haven’t done a lot of this, but the times that I do… WAY MORE FUN!!!

1. God has a purpose for everything. One of the greatest realizations I’ve discovered through this process is the plan God has in place for my life. Now don’t get me wrong, I still question why I have some of the struggles I do have, but my current path is clearly defined. I haven’t explained much detail about my job, but I am currently working with Severe and Persistent Mentally Ill, and within my internship and now within my job, I have been working on an integration of services between mental health and primary care services. Connecting the head to the rest of the body, as people in this industry say. A major component of this work revolves around how physical health can affect mental health. This includes obesity, diabetes, smoking, hypertension, etc. There is a direct correlation between what you put into your body, or do to take care of your body and how it affects psychological illnesses and even how well a psychotropic medication can work. Now, I do not have a mental illness, per se, but I can feel the mental effects of being healthy and understand the symbiotic relationship between the two. I feel as though I’m better prepared to talk the talk, because I am walking the walk. I think my journey, beginning last April, was Gods plan, setting me up for what I’m doing now.

I have 14 more days to drop one more stinkin’ pound and I know I can do it. 50lbs in a year is pretty darn good in my eyes, and I’m looking to drop 25 more to hit my final goal. 

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Full speed ahead

I've been really lax the past few weeks I mean months. Life has been a little nutty, but pretty darn fun all the same. My new job is going really well. I think I'm finally finding my groove and getting into the swing of things.

I graduated!!! Hooray!!! No more schoolwork, no more internship, no more reading, no more papers to write. I've actually read some books FOR FUN, and I'm quickly learning how to relax again. Although I will admit that the first few weeknights and weekends were a little weird.

Greg and I went on a nice little 4 day cruise to Mexico over Christmas. It was great to get away and reconnect, although I pretty much threw my entire "diet" out the window and was crazy gluttonous and indulgent - mmmmmm… molten chocolate cake. I did work out a few times and made sure to take the stairs all over the cruise ship. But I ended up getting a terrible cold on the ship, which turned into an even more terrible sinus infection once we were home, and that also impacted my momentum.

As far as my weight-loss journey is concerned, well, I've somewhat fallen out of routine a bit. Don't get me wrong, I'm still waking my pretty little ass up at 5/5:15 every morning to go to bootcamp and I'm still lovin' it!!! (Thank God for that!!!) But when it comes to tracking my food, well, I've sucked at it BIG TIME!!! Ever since the battery on my heart rate monitor went out on me, I've been terrible at tracking my foods mainly because I'm not tracking my calories burned. I really need to buck up and buy a new battery for that thing, I have no excuse except that I just haven't done it - so pathetic. On the flip-side… I really don't have much variety in my diet so there can't be that much variation on my calorie intake. Here is my typical day:

Breakfast: Jimmy Dean 260 Calorie turkey sausage & egg white sandwich
Mid-morning Snack: Yogurt
Lunch: Turkey sandwich on 45 calorie whole wheat bread with mustard and a side of reduced fat cheez-its
Afternoon snack: Apple and a handful of almonds (if I can find the time to stop and snack)
Dinner: varies… that is the one place where I have some variety in daily food

Ugh, it's so boring every day, but it's all good.

I did have a weigh-in, and although I have been holding steady at (pretty-much) the same weight, I was down from my last weigh-in a month ago. Only a couple of pounds, but it's still a move in the right direction. Stacy has challenged me to go down 5lbs by my next weigh-in in a month and I think I can do it, and it's just the thing I need to jump-start this journey. Goals are awesome!

Shy posted this picture and I decided to steal it, cause it's awesome!!!

'til next time… HUGS XOXOX

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

I WANT A BLOG UPDATE!!!!!

SO DO I!!!! Can someone write it for me?

Oh goodness it's been a crazy busy month. To update you on my weightloss… well, not much has changed, but I've been maintaining, which is good. I'm still going to bootcamp and kickin' some ass. I haven't been very good about writing down my food, but I've been very cognizant of what I'm eating and I've been pretty darn good in my choices - believe it or not, I was getting home crazy late the other night and went through Wendy's drive-thru and instead of the deep fried spicy chicken sandwich combo with fries, I got a grilled chicken salad with apples and vinaigrette, and a small chili. Of course I know it's not the best food in the world, but I could have done worse.

I think my heart rate monitor needs a new battery and I've stopped wearing it for that reason. It's not quite working right and there have been days where it's only reading 250 calories burned, and there is NO WAY!

So, what else is happening? Oh, ya know… just finished my internship hours and I'm the new Site Supervisor for Cobb County Community Services Board Austell location. That's right, I'm a supervisor. I have over a dozen direct reports and I'm responsible for the outpatient services of The CIRCLE. I know I'm qualified for this job, but I have to admit that I get a little chuckle every time I think that "I'm the boss".  BAHAHAHAHAAAAAA…

My internship paper is due November 16th, and then I have little easy steps and then I can graduate and get my life back. It's been one hell of a ride getting there, but I'm almost done and so ready to be done. I'm just trying not to check out too soon, cause I'm so over this, but still have some work to do.

Not much else to report, just busy busy busy. Oh, and I need to get to the doctor cause I think I might have exercise-induced asthma cause I'm having a hard time breathing with the cold weather. Hopefully I can get to the doctor and get an inhaler and push myself even harder at bootcamp cause I'll be able to breathe once again.

Forgive me if you don't hear much from this end until after I graduate on DECEMBER 13!!! Mark your calendars!!!

HUGS
XOXOX